Things are going to change

A very familiar feeling has been tugging at me

Something I that I last felt first when I first graduated from secondary education, then after that when I graduated from polytechnic. 

Each of these times, I changed...for the better or worse.

Hang on, its going to change again.

laughing

I love laughing,
I love laughing so hard I can't breath
So hard that I feel like I'm going to drop dead


Its a reminder that we're all still alive
That we are all still more than just automatons going through our daily routine


So if I have to die, let me die laughing
Let me die knowing I lived.

Its not about the length of my stay, its about how colourful I can make it

Today

Today

I looked at the decisions that I have made.

I found the destinations that those decisions have brought me to

Some caused me to lose what I treasured

Others allowed me to fight for what I treasure.

I always wonder if I have made the right choice,

If I haven't just been screwing up.

I'm sure I have been screwing up,

So why? why do I still have such amazing people around me?

I'm afraid of the dark, being alone.

Yet I have people around me lighting up my life.

I'm afraid of feeling old, of being grown up

Yet all around me, people who know who I was told me that I will be fine.

I have done nothing to deserve all this,

I have even hurt people that I cared about.

Things that shouldn't have been done,

Lies that shouldn't been told,

I've done them all.

Yet...

Life goes on...

I just don't want it to go on without all of you :)